I'd say at least 99.9% of people have the ultimate goal to "just be happy." Of course, every one's definition of happiness is different. Mine is to have a career in my passion - the thing that makes me the most happy. To accomplish this requires sacrifice as well, (as I am learning.)
After quitting a job that was making me into a person I did not want to be; unhappy, mean, unsatisfied, angry... I made a decision to pursue my dreams. I wanted to be in the event world, specifically creating art with flowers. Floral design is where I want to be. It calms me, it doesn't feel like work, and the day flies by when I can use the left side of my brain. Being creative is my zen.
Now, because I chose this route, I have been having a hard time adjusting to the sacrifices: of being paid less than I was making just a month ago; of having to "pay my dues" by starting on the bottom of the totem pole; of stability, full time hours, and benefits. All these things are making me ask, "Is this happiness? Am I happier now than I was at the vet hospital?" Currently, I am feeling as if I am working extremely hard without reward. I am doubting my choices.
OR, am I not being patient? Time after time, Matt has to explain to me that I am starting fresh and cant have things handed to me. That I have to be patient, let people see what I can do, and give my all so I can receive that reward of accomplishment and happiness.
Things are going to be hard for a little, and I know that I will persevere and be where I want to be. Maybe not now, maybe not next month... but soon.
I am hopelessly hopeful.
; )
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